life is a deadly sickness

Hey dude! what're you doing like that? Don't watch me like a fool, you perfectly know what I have to say. Yep, life is a deadly sickness, a countdown before your terminal breath. Try to catch happiness and emotion, and if you don't succeed in that, create it yourself! Rock around nowhere, so ,I want to shake it right. What to do? Keep my butt stuck on my chair in front of my screen and keep on writing silly things hey?When I will be fed up with all that, two choices, a final firework with myself, gift for all faul things around me, Or...I surely dare many things I don't now. The question is, when? 1 second?1 minute? one hour?one decade? I want i know , but some mental barriers are standing against me, this is called: to be shy!